I dont know how to express myself right now.
my feeling rite now.
if i can juz said one word to myself it's only lasting for a couple of hours.
i'm down rite now, yup.
its getting harder for me each of the day.
If i can just said it out loud, it wud b the best part ever.
but i cant.
it shut down to my heart.
i learn from my mistake.
and i regret it.
Last nite was the perfect day after sometime i didnt feel my day.
thanks to my dearie abby and her boyfie for gven me this feeling again.
but, deep down instead of smile is a pain.
wut sud i do.
does it worst? or it juz a common simptom?
YES! i'm afraid to know it.
NO! i dont want to know it.
but, i have to know it.
Where sud i put this pain tru?
is this the punishment for me in such the things i had done?
I'm ashamed to admit i am afraid.
yup. i am.
it make me so nervous to know the truth.
Please give me strength to walk tru this pain.
the test u give me it so difficult..
but i know....
"TUHAN menguji hamba-NYA mengikut keimanannya"
Thanks for reading this.
and I am afraid..
p/s: ngantok laa plak kan time neh.. keh3...